I'm Just me.. Marleen..

  Hey Beauties. and welcome to my blog In todays fast paced society where our attention span is no longer then that of a goldfish, where TikTok and Reels have taken over. In a world where everything has to happen NOW, and lasts no more than 15 seconds, it is very easy to get lost and feel, especially us who are a bit older, extra old and outdated. Many of us grow older thinking we need to look 20 years younger than we are, to be attractive, to be lovable, to be enough. But at the age of 40 (now 44) I discovered that age simply don't matter all that much.  A 20 year old may have smooth skin, a firm bum and boobies that sit high on her chest. But a 20 year old, not matter the IQ, will never possess the wisdom and often grace one gets with age. We live in a society that now idolises our number of followers and likes, more than the raw talent of a person. We strive to look beautiful more than we strive to have a kind heart. It wasn't until I turned 40 that I finally learned to lov...

Hello Beautiful People And welcome to my blog. Have you ever had a dream?? You wanted to do something but you just didn't know how to get there?? The obsticals were simply just too big?  Time wise it just wasn't possible? Money, or more likely the lack of it, stood in your way?? Ya me too...   For a couple of years I had been sitting at home, being a stay at home mum, wondering what was next for me. My kids are growing up. The baby is now 10, the other two are 15 & 17. In a few years time I'm no longer needed to be hands on the way we are when our children are small. For years I had my little crafting "business" going. It was me making handmade cards for companies in return for their products. It didn't make any money but it filled a void when I needed it. But as I slowly started to crave more I turned my nose to my new found passion. Plus size fashion!!! I had stumbled across plus size youtubers in my desperate search to feel better about my own body. Hav...

 Hello Beautiful People and welcome to my blog. Stress.. Ever feel so stressed you end up running in circles?? I do... Quite a lot actually lol. Since recovering from depression I have really realised how much stress I had in my life and how much it has affected me all my life. Stress, as I'm sure you know, is good for no one and for nothing. It stops us in our tracks and can make us physically sick if it's a prolonged state. Stress can be many different things for different people and knowing YOUR stress factors is key. What ever your stress factors are, you have to be aware of them and learn to implement rules and tecniques to reduce the stress. (I learned mine by stopping and taking a 2 min break when I felt I got stressed. I kept a key word list on my phone, so when I got stressed I would quickly write down a few words of what I was doing and why I was stressed, if I knew. Once I had time to breathe again, I would take 5 mins to sit and think through the episode and slowly...

Hello Beautiful People and welcome to my blog. All through the ages women have been doing their best to look pretty and alter their shapes. There was always one shape or size that at a given time frame was more attractive than others. I dont know the history of women and body positivity but I do know how it feels to be in a body that dont have the desired shape. Always an apple shape. Big bust and a "pregnant" belly. No matter what size I was, I always looked pregnant. And I still do. I have spent my life from I was 16 until I turned 40 hating my body. I knew I had a pretty enough face, not stunning but pretty. My legs from my knees down are very strong and muscular and I've always liked that as my calves visibly flex as I walk. My bust as I said is BIG and I learned very quicky to show it off to distract from anything else. But that was it.. sad isnt it?? Spending so many years hating what I saw in the mirror. What really clicked with me was when my daughter, she was onl...

Hey Beautiful people an welcome to my blog.. I started this blog with the intentions of blogging at least once or twice a month. I really wanted to talk about the subjects that many of us shy away from, the subjects that are hard for us all. Its no secret that I (did) suffer from depression and I am very vocal about it, but although I felt had safely landed on the other side of it, a few moths ago it came back and slapped me right in the face.. I think I had gotten comfortable, thinking depression was now behind me and as long as I took care of myself all would be well.. I think the universe decided to remind me who's the boss and who's not!! The reasons behind my depression, as I have said in my previous post, are personal and as many of the reasons involve other people, its not for me to spill here. You can read the story of my depression HERE if you wish.. The main thing is, I know my depression so well, I know the root cause of it. So why did it come back?? W...

Hello Beautiful People and welcome to my blog. In order for you to get to know me, I believe this is one of the first subjects I need to talk about and I hope you will forgive the long post. Yep I'll say it out loud.. I suffer from depression.. Depression for me, is like a lake. A black black lake, deepest in the center. As my life flows from one day to the next, I stand around this lake. On good days I’m happily dancing around the lake never going near the water. When I have bad days, it feels like I have taken a step into the lake. At the ‘height’ of my depression, I was standing in the center and the water rising. I was drowning. I literally felt like I was drowning. I could feel the water starting to cover my face, my mouth, my nose and all I could do was let it.. Lucky enough I realized what was going on and got help. Monday 17th oct 2011 is a date I will never forget. It was the day I asked for help and the day I saved my life. I was with my baby at a check up wit...